yearning for freedomsunlight never within reachuntil I let go Elle Vampa Anger It’s burning away inside, like a fiery fuel. Instead of making me feel energized, it’s leaving my soul in ashes, having to make do with running on fumes. How I get by is beyond me. I must be stronger than I give myself … More Bi-Weekly Loss | The Unholy Trinity
I’m on my way to a specialist pet store (mine are the most spoiled degus ever), and my mom is sitting next to me in my car. I’m changing lanes while trying to keep the otherwise scarce sunlight from blinding me. It’s the day before European Election Day and my mom and I are discussing … More Bi-Weekly Loss | The Voice Of Europe
I’m not allowed to discuss the exact details of my current misery, bound by contract as I am, until a certain date has passed. After which you will find my story to be a perfect re-election campaign to prolonging my title of Loser Queen Extraordinaire for another lifetime or so. Why do experiences that make … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Something Old, Something New
erasingfreedom of nature’s designto be part of man’s way losingfaith in what mattersto be contained in Life’s play BUT!today addingdefiant flecks of colourto the vast and stubborn grey Elle Vampa I have my own business, remember? (If not, please visit my About page and see if it’s there – it might not, to be honest, … More Bi-Weekly Loss | The Picture Of Elle Grey
no reason, no limitseat sleep rage repeat smile wave play pretend growlwhatever goals you set, take your eyes off the finish line there is no whythere is no whenthere is onlynow and again Elle Vampa Just for good measures (and because you cannot ever really be certain, can you?) I sniff my soda. A few … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Poor Mood, Poor Timing
rain, kept prisonerinside the darkestcloud, luring theskies into sadness bow my headdown to lifeas I surrender let the sunlightbreak me openblissfully create newways to shine Elle Vampa I don’t want to I don’t want to I don’t want to… OKAY FINE! I manage to reach this newborn point of no return after opening my inbox … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Sun Struck
ExCUSE me!? I stare at the phone in my hand, in utter shock, and my inner Keke Palmer gives out a mental: ohnoshedidn’t! But she did. The annoying manager of one of our stores called with a question I can’t answer. And the people who can have literally just stepped outside to get some fresh … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Simple Stupidity
Okay, first things first: I am grieving the loss of my friend, which is weighing heavier on me than I realised. So last week, I didn’t blog because I just didn’t feel like it. (I did feel like crying, by the way, which is what I spent last Thursday on, in case you were wondering.) … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Until April
I try to swallow an upcoming coughing fit away, but my aching throat is making it all the more difficult. The last time I had a coughing fit – and I swear my throat is growing more itchy by the desperate second – was in a full college classroom. With an annoyed professor, an ocean … More Bi-Weekly Loss | A Little Underbaked
I’m not sure what it’s supposed to mean when you find yourself lying awake at night, pondering from A to Z, and the only way to fall asleep is by imagining you’re strangling your sister. (To my defence, while I was doing so, I felt guilty because I don’t actually want to harm her.) But … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Estrangled Sisters
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