Elle Vampa

erasing
freedom of nature’s design
to be part of man’s way

losing
faith in what matters
to be contained in Life’s play

BUT!
today

adding
defiant flecks of colour
to the vast and stubborn grey

Elle Vampa

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I have my own business, remember? (If not, please visit my About page and see if it’s there – it might not, to be honest, but I’m too lazy practical to check).

So, if you didn’t know: I am a business-owner. But because client interest dropped like a hammer with no hands to hold it up, I was forced to find a parttime job to sustain my living.

(Yeah, I think that actually is on my About page.)

Anyway, I have found been given a new name that’s perfect for my business (thank you, my dearest Horror Movie Night American Super Friend! You. Are. BRILLIANT!), but…

My other friends “don’t get it”.

And now I’m terrified nobody will – and by nobody I mean any potential future client.

Yet the name is perfect. So… Now what?

Meditation! Insight!

I’ve spent my entire childhood desperately trying to fit in and equally desperately failing. I’ve always tried to “do things by the book”, forcing myself to live by the letter.

Someone else’s letter. Never my own.

I couldn’t understand why my business was unsuccessful! I did everything right, according to business coaches, copywriters, and colleagues. So how come it failed anyway?

Because it wasn’t me.

I am scared to follow my heart, do things as I feel fit, as opposed to what others tell me is the right decision to make. I’m terrified to fail.

For the only thing I want is to be a success. But I needn’t desperately try and fit in.

Because I won’t.

I wasn’t made to fit in.
I was made to stand out.

And if you only ever follow others, unsurprisingly you’ll never leave your own imprint behind.

So here’s to me stepping out of the dull grey and adding some colour to my life!

And to all other brave souls doing the same ♥