erasingfreedom of nature’s designto be part of man’s way losingfaith in what mattersto be contained in Life’s play BUT!today addingdefiant flecks of colourto the vast and stubborn grey Elle Vampa I have my own business, remember? (If not, please visit my About page and see if it’s there – it might not, to be honest, … More Bi-Weekly Loss | The Picture Of Elle Grey
8.42 amThe World is awake, street noises are travelling upwards through my half-opened window. More than ever I feel disconnected to what is happening “out there”, as my only wish is to remain asleep. Be blissfully unaware of all and everything. But the noises cease to fade (SHUT UP), and my alarm clock gives me … More Fateful Figurines & A Mother’s Job
no reason, no limitseat sleep rage repeat smile wave play pretend growlwhatever goals you set, take your eyes off the finish line there is no whythere is no whenthere is onlynow and again Elle Vampa Just for good measures (and because you cannot ever really be certain, can you?) I sniff my soda. A few … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Poor Mood, Poor Timing
My mum looks at me expectantly. “What did your friend say? Because your sister needs to know whether or not I can babysit.” I heave a deep sigh (which I consider my new hobby, based on the amount of sighs I heave daily) and make a gesture that is best described as an octopus trying … More Planning For Loss
rain, kept prisonerinside the darkestcloud, luring theskies into sadness bow my headdown to lifeas I surrender let the sunlightbreak me openblissfully create newways to shine Elle Vampa I don’t want to I don’t want to I don’t want to… OKAY FINE! I manage to reach this newborn point of no return after opening my inbox … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Sun Struck
the birth of my existence,amidst the dark a light, a ray,never a stranger, seldom friends,a lifetime of emotions in dismay,but in all and every wayI will be okay Elle Vampa (Okay, so, apparently I write poetry now…) I thought it felt familiar. Ha! See? I’m not stupid! Predictable? Probably. Seeing as things go exactly as … More A Loser Familiarity
ExCUSE me!? I stare at the phone in my hand, in utter shock, and my inner Keke Palmer gives out a mental: ohnoshedidn’t! But she did. The annoying manager of one of our stores called with a question I can’t answer. And the people who can have literally just stepped outside to get some fresh … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Simple Stupidity
The First Week I told myself this is normal. I was awaiting my friend’s reply. If I didn’t hear from her, I could not inform my deceased friend’s brother when we’d plan to visit the grave. Even without a reply, reluctance to contact, well, anyone kept growing. Because: By keeping myself engaged at all times, … More A Weeks-Long Witch’s Denial
Okay, first things first: I am grieving the loss of my friend, which is weighing heavier on me than I realised. So last week, I didn’t blog because I just didn’t feel like it. (I did feel like crying, by the way, which is what I spent last Thursday on, in case you were wondering.) … More Bi-Weekly Loss | Until April
There are no words for what I’d like to write about today. For what I must write about, for it is the biggest news I have to share. There’s nothing else, really. Except for Maya Angelou. I’ve always loved some of her most famous quotes – and even more so some of her less-famous ones. … More An Attempt Was Made
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