Ideas? Check.
Plans? Check.
Execution? Pleaso do! Ugh. I’m over this.
What is WRONG with me?
Is it the hormones again? Ugh. It’s probably the hormones again.
I bet the world will stop spinning if that B6 supplement actually works… Ugh.
Why can’t I stop saying “ugh”?
Ugh.
It’s Monday evening and I’ve just royally wasted my work-out time. Spent it on watching America’s Next Top Model critical feedback clips by professional photographers on YouTube instead – gosh they’re addictive!
I can’t believe I used to watch that show as a teenager and enjoy it. The bullying is so obvious!
But never mind. Losing track here. Again.
Ugh.
Okay, had an amazing day at work today! Great weather, great vibes on this lovely Tuesday. Everyone seems in a better mood.
Even the coffee machine did not internally exploded like it did last week (I ONLY WANTED A CUP OF COFFEE! In the end I poured more effort down the drain than delicious hot liquid down my throat – UGH x 100).
Dinner was lovely, too. It’s just…
Why does my food not want to stay down? Or wait… Why is my food going down so quickly? WHAT IS HAPPENING!?
No no no no where is that pill I saved to suppress nausea? And will it work combined with an anti-diarrhoea one?
Just what I needed after an otherwise perfect day: an upset stomach and nausea to die for.
If it’s my hormones again I swear I’ll kill them!
Ugh.
My Wednesday is going brilliantly! Watch me being all kinds of efficient at work, getting into all kinds of important discussions with my boss and this other important guy.
I’m ACTUALLY speaking my mind! And people are ACTUALLY listening!
And agreeing! Woohoo, go me!
It’s just… I really don’t feel like working out tonight. Should I even, after yesterday? I feel fine, save from that headache that appears to be on a quest to poke my eyes out from the inside.
I swear if it’s the hormones… I’ll…
Ugh.
All week long, I haven’t been able to start up, kind of. Even this morning, a promising, alluring Thursday morning… And all I was able to do was roll over and sleep for another hour.
I’m not exhausted, but I do feel… unprovoked? Unmotivated? It’s like a part of me has shut down, while the other part is still going.
I have so many plans, yet I appear unsuited to achieve anything other than watch TV (I have caught up with Below Deck Down Under, Season 2. And wow, Captain Jason in a speedo does NOT disappoint!).
Still, something has changed.
In the past, if I’d feel like this, I’d try and fight it with all my might – and fail, leaving me feeling even worse off.
Now, I’m not fighting anything. In fact, despite my grumpiness I haven’t snapped at anyone this week, not once!
So, whatever it is: it’s old news, and a hint of something new.
Even if it’s a small one, I still call that a win. And I’ll take it!Ugh.
Elle Vampa 